"Why I Still Can't Watch This Video Without Crying"

The Video That Broke My Heart (And Healed It)

When I first edited the footage of my mum’s final journey, I couldn’t make it through without collapsing in grief. The pain was too raw, the memories too sharp.

A year later, I tried again. This time, I sobbed for 20 minutes straight—but I also noticed something new: her soft laughter between words, the way her eyes still sparkled when she looked at us.

Today? That same video is my most treasured possession.

What Nobody Tells You About Memorial Videos

1. They Grieve With You

• At 3 months, the footage felt like salt in a wound.

• At 3 years, it’s a bittersweet reminder of her love.

• Experts say revisiting painful memories helps rewire grief—and I finally understand why.

2. The Soundtrack of Healing

I changed the music three times:

1. First, a sad piano piece (too heavy)

2. Then, her favorite hymn (still too painful)

3. Finally, "天使的翅膀" (Angel’s Wings)—a song that matched her gentle strength

Sometimes, the right melody helps the heart catch up to the memories.

3. Editing as Therapy

• Free Tools That Helped Me:

• Filmmora (Video editing)

• Animoto (Video editing)

• Canva (For adding text tributes)

Note: Go slow. Edit in small doses. Save versions so you can revisit earlier drafts when you’re ready.

Why I Keep Watching (Even When It Hurts)

Because now, the video doesn’t just show her illness—it shows her. The way she smiled when we told old family jokes. The way she held my hand even when she was too weak to speak.

Grief never really disappears. But with time, the sharp pain softens into something warmer—a mix of sadness and gratitude.

For Anyone Editing Their Own Memorial Video:

• It’s okay to stop and cry.

• It’s okay to take months (or years) to finish.

• And it’s okay if the final version is just for you.

Have you made a video tribute for someone you love? What helped—or hurt—the most? Share your story with me. You’re not alone.